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2012-01-26T22:22:00.002+08:00

wakakakakkaa i haven't posted since last year. HAHAHAHAHAHA

it's as long as... 9 november... hohohoho

anyway,

Merry Christmas

Happy New Year

Happy Lunar New Year.

HAHAHAHA. okay

last few posts were emo posts since it was o level period now i no more mo. HAHAHAHAHA.

need to start school next week ): i no want ):

Winny

2011-11-09T20:52:00.001+08:00

这位小姐变了…
从不听摇滚音乐的她利用摇滚音乐发泄情绪…
真痛苦…
曾大娘想减肥想到快疯了…
这个世界上，丑陋的女生是无法生存的。
没人要…来来去去只是个眼中钉。

唉…我也想当个苗条又漂亮的女生…

缘分啊~!别跟我闹了！不然我就必须饿扁自己…

真的…体重一直在上升…本来说不超过65就好了，现在却都超过70了…

我亲爱的钢琴，对不起对不起对不起！！！！！
我不应该把你当成出气筒…
你是我唯一的好朋友…是我对不起你。
除了你，我都不知道谁是志同道合的好朋友…你是我的唯一… 我爱死你了。全世界我最爱你了，钢琴。别把我抛弃！
都是我的错，对不起。

W

2011-10-20T19:52:00.001+08:00

Haaaaaaaa~ suffocating. Okay cannot stress myself cannot cannot cannot stress. Whoooooooooooooo I can do it right? :)

Winny

2011-09-12T00:08:00.001+08:00

「微微一笑很倾城」在3天内读完了…
感觉上…可说是酸甜苦辣咸全都参进去吧…
有好也有坏，但整体上还算不错！
也蛮有趣的…
好象读华文书有读上瘾了…
唉…后遗症真难受！幸好我都度过了！
等考完O水准再去读顾蔓的其它本书吧！
现在准备考试一定要加油加油！
唉…若真的能遇见一笑奈何，我一定天天都玩游戏去！
真羡慕微微！
梦幻江湖你在哪里？！我也想找个一笑奈何！！！哈哈哈~

芦苇微微＜3 一笑奈何

Winny

2011-08-20T22:16:00.002+08:00

Don't know where I heard this, from a drama I guess.

It's better to leave first than to allow others to leave first.

Maybe it's true. This way we'll get to know who actually cares, who actually is willing to hold on.

It's fine. Continue smiling! :)

Winny

2011-08-13T12:47:00.002+08:00

I guess... The only comfort I can get is that at least I care for myself.
When I lose hope, all I can tell myself is that I'm the only one who cares for myself, so if I don't even care, no one else is going to care...
Nohing helps. Nothing.

This time I think I gave up. Completely.
Motivation? All lost. Prelims? What is that?
I'm going to fail miserably for prelims. Fail miserably for Os.
This time, the desire to plunge is the greatest. The ground really looks inviting.

I tell myself to think of Zico and stay happy, but Zico makes me even sadder. Why? I don't know too. Since when have I been like this? Why why why? No use. Everything is of no use. I need to believe in it, but how to?

It's all just an image that I portray. Nothing is real.

I want to beat all of them. Yet can I do it?

Straight no.

I'm fake.

Why am I like this?

Sometimes I really think I should go on the wrong path. Be a gangster. Will this work? Will people start caring for me? Everything will still be fake, right? 真的好想好想好想踏入歧途。但这样也没用，只会毁灭我的未来。

I really feel like being a farmer in a country side. At least I won't need to think of complicated things like this.

I do realise that I'm actually the one making it complicated for myself. Dumb kid. Why am I such a fool?

Getting rid of myself will be much better. So much better.

I should really call a help line. Wanted to do it today but my brother took my phone T_T

Everytime I tell myself to keep my cool, I just lose it. It's as though that thread of tolerance is snapped. Snapped. I lose my cool just that way.

Here I am again, wallowing in self pity.

Winny, you do know that you suck, don't you?

Winny

2011-07-06T21:17:00.000+08:00

정말 실망해.

휴 ㅠ.ㅠ

모두 나 때무내!!!

2011-07-06T21:09:00.002+08:00

사람들은 모두 동일합니다.
괜찮아. 나 윈니야. 나 할수있어!!!!!!!!

마음이 좀 불편해 :/ 마음이 이상해. 그래도, 나 꼭 할수있어!!!

친구들... 친구가 아니야. 모두 거짓말이야.

나 할수있게지? 아... 몰라요 :/

괜찮아. 나 꼭 강한해야돼!

:/

2011-06-05T03:09:00.003+08:00

The biggest obstacle i have to overcome, is myself.

its the truth. it's not the first time i heard it, but it feels like i built up a wall around myself. i'm the one preventing myself from shining. when will i break it? 我既是才能破影而出呢？D:

I NEED TO HAVE CONFIDENCE IN MYSELF!!!
WINNY, STOP DOUBTING YOURSELF!
YOU HAVE THE ABILITY TO DO MUCH BETTER!!!
YOU CAN DO IT!!!
你一定行的！
너 꼭 할수있어!!!

Winny
ps: why did i post so much in the past few hours? maybe it's been too long since i posted~ and i have too much to say hehehe

Dream?

2011-06-05T02:11:00.002+08:00

Honestly, after going to ACJC's choir concert on monday, i found my lost love for singing. choir style. For a while, a little while, i forgot how much i yearned to sing.

For a while, a little while, i forgot how much i wanted to sing in an SATB choir. I want to hear harmony so badly T_T

gahhhhhhhhhhhh.

i think i was so touched that i could cry!

there was this male soloist in the alumni that sang so beautifully that made me wanna be a guy T_T his voice was smoooooooooooooth! and the female soloist in the alumni was enchanting T_T gahhhhhhh

the Auckland Chamber Choir was amazing too!!! T_T

amazing singers T_T

when will i ever get to shine? T_T

though i thought that the songs in the whole concert was too similar and long. It got a little boring in the middle... The Auckland Choir had a song called little bird(?) awesome. i tell you. awesome. it was so lively and every movement was filled with energy. (unlike ahemahemahemusahemahemahem) yeah...

T_T i need to practice choral singing again soon or i'll lose it T_T

I CAN DO IT!!! :D

Winny

2NE1

2011-06-05T00:15:00.002+08:00

i'm still quite sore over the fact that i'm unable to see them on July 15th ):

tickets are like $300 SGD. costs a bomb. Furthermore, the only group that i'm dying to see is 2NE1. those that i can see another time are: Big bang, teentop, fti, who else is coming? HAHA idk :/

i really wanna win the second price of global contest! why second? i can't make it for first. as in, i want to go, but i really can't leave my studies like this. it's O levels!!! education is 101% important. so i'm sorry 2NE1 but i really have to put you behind my studies. ):

i still dk what i should do for the video. i have practically no ideas this time. ha...ha... tough ): even the battle is tough too ):

i wanna see 2NE1 T_T i'm an unloyal fan T_T

idk D:

whattodo?! competition is very fierce too ):

IT'S OKAY I NEED TO HAVE CONFIDENCE IN MYSELF!!! AS LONG AS I JUST POST UP THAT VIDEO!!! ):

can't wait for their new album too. definitely a hit. can't wait for their US debut also. even though it means i'll be seeing them lesser ): it's okay they just need to know that i, as a fan (or friend/sister anytime!) , will always be supporting them :)

Winny

Secret Garden

2011-06-04T23:37:00.003+08:00

Okay i need to do a post about Secret Garden. Don't ask, i just have to.

Plot wise... i think it's lacking. It's quite a common melodrama where a lot of things are repeated like the stupid mother of the rich guy and the love triangles and people getting hurt and stuff. i thought that the soul switching thing is too fanfic like also...

wahh DBT i tell you. i think the drama was quite boring... until around episode 14/15 where it started getting interesting with the common heartbreaks. yes, i am a weirdo for liking angsty/heartbreaking stuff like those common scenes. but i really had a hard time watching ep 1-13 i think. i kind of broke the drama into 2 parts. i watched ep 1-12 in the march holidays. and i continued with the rest only like yesterday? i even forgot which ep i stopped at. HAHA.

i didn't like the soul switching thingy, but after the accident, i actually knew of the use of it. hehe. then we all thanked the ability. HA.

overall i thought the plot was still predictable :/ it's quite... bleah.

and i wanted to get over and done with so i stayed up till 4.30AM watching it. HA. not really watching though. i just watched those scenes that i liked and scrolled past those i didn't. hehee. i read the subs while scrolling lah.

oh and ssun looks mighty fineeee~ so does hyunbin. HA. but i think that part where ssun admitted he likes oska is ahemahem weird. i thought that he was just using the excuse he's gay to get away from girls. but didn't know he actually meant it. HAHAHAHA.

okay now to the OST.

i think secret garden has a fantastic OST. i really love all the songs. I LOVE IT! i seriously don't know how to use words to describe my love for 4men T_T it's just wonderful T_T esp shin youngjae(?) hahaha i really dk their names T_T

EVERY SONG IS WONDERFUL!!! I CAN'T TAKE IT IT'S GONNA BE ON REPLAY LIST!!! :D

HAHA. I really can't stop saying how much i love the OST T_T

okay now away from secret garden. i need to have random stuff in every post. HAHA

-i'm still at ep 4 or was it 6? of Girlfriend is a Gumiho. :/ not intending to continue anyway.
-i stopped at ep 10 or was it 12? of Mary is out all night. i just can't stand this drama. i find it damn damn damn damn boring. i don't even know why on earth is JGS and MGY cute together? i don't find that couple cute...
-i also stopped at ep 8 of Gloomy Salad Days. it's kind of boring yet interesting. HAHA. and i don't dare to watch it at night. it's a little creepy *_*

overall, i just have to say that i have no stamina for watching dramas anymore. anything that starts to get boring, labelled boring and stopped immediately. HAHAHA

okay back to secret garden. i'm listening to the songs now. and i wanna learn it on the piano T_T but i no time and no talent T_T. Ah, and it was also the OST that made me wanna watch the drama. i was obsessed with that woman/man a week before the march holidays where i wanted to watch it hehehhehehehe.

oh, okay can shunbian talk about heaven's postman since i just watched it.

it's on my good side. it's touching. wanted to cry T_T but i'm tough lah HAHAHAHAH.
the ending was satisfactory :) at least jaejun didn't forget everything about her. i didn't get angry bought the skinships like normal fangirls. simply because it was sweeeeeeeeeeet. HAHAHA. i approve. :)

okay i think this should be all?

OH! secret. (no garden) yeah, 不能说的秘密. i watched this longlonglong time ago. but the piano parts are still awesome to me. HAHAHA. i really really really wanna learn 不能说的秘密 on the piano. but it's really really tough T_T even while learning it hands separately, i'm still superrrrrrrrrrrr slow T_T someone save my assssssssssssssssssss HAHAHAHAHHA.
shit i should have tried looking for the printed scores when i was at the music store with duckie on thurs.

oh talking about duckie and thurs, HAHA we watched kungfu panda. it was hilarious. so hilarious i didn't find the supposedly touching part touching at all. HAHA. no sarcasm intended. seriously. there was the part where po got abandoned by his parents because of the stupid shang. yeah we're supposed to cry/feel touched? but it was too funny for me HAHAHAHA. okay that's all for panda. HAHAHAHA. but the baby panda was cute :) but after the movie, duckie and i went walking around. duckie is seriously a laughing stock. really. HAHAHA. had a really fun time with her. we walked almost the whole of orchard though. AHHAHAHA. but there's this store in plaza sing that sells really nice clothes. next to paper market. it's quite ex though, even after 50% it's still 20-40 range. some clothes are a little mismatched too. i thought that there were better combinations than same colour stuff for a few pieces. YET IT'S STILL PRETTY T_T i wanna buy but my heart aches when i just touch my moneh T_T HAHAHA. i might consider getting those on offer though. HAHA. provided they are not sold yet :)

okay should be it alr? wow i side tracked so much. HAHAHAHAHA.

Winny

2011-06-04T23:18:00.003+08:00

heaven's postman is awesome T_T sheeshhhhh i have limited vocab... and i'm slacking off again~ T_T sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhh can't i just stop daydreaming? i want a nanny to look after me T_T

sighhhhhhh all i feel is bitterness. grrrrrrrr i need to forget it. desperately.

i'm going to just type random stuff that's coming to my head.

i'm having a crush on blah again. i just managed to get over it.... nah not really. I HAVE TO I NEED TO GET OVER IT!!!

i wanna change my blogskin, but idk what to change it to... so i shall just leave it there. should i shift again? change url? idk i feel weird...

:/

i want to meet 2ne1 so badly. ): global contest ): why can't i work hard for it? D:

gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

i'm messing myself up T_T

我要有自信心！！！

나 왜 자심없어?! ):

i needa have confidence in myself. but how to? what can i have confidence in?

i feel like taking a break from school. like maybe a one year break, to do what i want to do, then go back to studying happily. but with the rush rush rush, how can i do it?

i already feel like a hopeless person T_T

i feel like those worthless teenagers that do not have a direction in life... 我的将来还是非常迷糊，不知自己该如何是好。。。 ):

should i call tinkle helpline? i think i really should... at least talk to someone who might be able to give me advice... and maybe not really mock me? i don't know.

i feel like everything's different now. after stepping down from choir, even back to visit them feels different. it feels as if...我是外人... it hurts you know, to feel that i'm not needed anymore, it hurts.

yes, i actually am an attention seeker. i can't stand being left out. i hate it. i just don't show it. ):

what for. why ain't i honest with my feelings? i should be honest. why do i think so much about others? why ):

gahhhhhhh this post is filled with ): faces. anyhow i still hope i may feel better after venting it.

i should make a list of what i wanna do when i finish Os. but isn't it too early to be thinking of that? :/

do well, winny, do well. :/ :/ :/

i should end off now right? i can't think of anything else to complain about too.

Winny

2011-06-04T19:01:00.002+08:00

i feel like i need to call a helpline, badly. i want to talk to someone i don't know. i don't know why too... :/ i need a lot of help. i need to push myself. i need that push. i need a big slap. i need a big push. i need a big wake up call. gahhhhhhhh i need a lot a lot of things... :/

howwwwww~ it's critical and yet i'm still wasting my time like this T_T

i ought to die. ought to die. if doing work in the library helps, i'll gladly go to the library everyday. gahhhhhhh someone motivate me!

all i do is find excuses for myself to slack T_T

D:

Winny

2011-04-14T21:44:00.002+08:00

I don't know... I just don't know anymore D: i lost my power, that power to judge. I'm in a state of confusion. In the end i'll be the only one there for myself. Gahhh why can't i just be cool? I wanna be a guy T_T

I don't know anything!!!!! Ahhhhhh so confused. How did i used to remain so happy? Where did it go?! D:

Winny

2011-01-15T00:04:00.002+08:00

i'm already at a point where i don't know who to be considered a friend and who to be considered a passing figure. it's tough even living in this generation. with all the nonsense and fiasco. hah. it's funny eh?

i'm already at a point where my only best friend is myself. i'm alone. i'll be alone. i have to be independent. hah. how am i going to go it? idk. i should just knock myself against the wall. maybe i'll serve to be of a better purpose.

i'm really tired of all this friendship nonsense. when are you lying? when are you speaking the truth? i don't know. funny.

i should have stepped out long ago. i missed the chance. now i can't. oh well. every step i took in my life was a regret.

Winny

2011-01-10T19:12:00.002+08:00

좀 실망하다...

Hah. So disappointed in my parents. They know that O level results are released today, yet they didnt know that i got chinese results today. Heh. How funny. 웃기다...

So what if i got an A1? You still don't know. Hah. :/

Sighhhhhhhh. When? When?! When will you all start encouraging me?

Don't you all know that i need someone to work for? SOMEONE!!! Grrrrrrr.
It's useless workn for myself without anyone to show off to. Rawr. Whatever.

Winny

2011-01-08T13:32:00.002+08:00

And honestly, i feel that i have the need to bond more with my family. I feel that i don't really know them that well.
Similarly, i think they don't really understand me too...
I don't know :/ maybe i'm just thinking too much :/ i really need a friend to talk to, but. Don't trust any of them :/
I can imagine sarcastic remarks coming out already D:
Should just concentrate on work.
Sighhhhhhhhhhhhh Bye.

Winny

2011-01-08T13:24:00.002+08:00

It's been a long time since i last blogged... :/ heh time really flies... It's 2011 already... D:

New year resolution: Smile More, Frown Less. Really. I need to remain really positive...

Stop thinking about irrelevant stuff. What's passed had passed. No use brooding over it.

Must be more mature. Study hard and i'll be able to have a better future. :)

Winny

2010-12-23T03:31:00.002+08:00

hehehe back :) really really fun.

sidetrack: hohoho haven't posted for a month!

ahhhhhhh but really wish time could stop. i don't want 2011 to come T_T haven't done homework T_T

i'm going to die badly next year T_T needa pull up my socks! but i can't find the motivation to do so T_T

i just wanna play and play and play~ be a kid forever! i really have childish thinking. oh well~

needa go sleep soon...

bye~

Winny

2010-11-22T12:49:00.001+08:00

실망이다...

어떡하지?

아~

찐짜씁쓸다...

슈주, 미안해... ):

나 열심하게...

화이팅!

Winny

2010-11-13T03:10:00.000+08:00

T_T so difficult!!!~ 찐짜 어려워요!!! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Winny

2010-11-04T23:35:00.001+08:00

one day my ego will kill me. heh

i've been too egoistic. boasting about myself. yet all i can do, is this little. why am i such a fool? hah.

just a few more days. i'll make it! a few more. bear with it!

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr sometimes it's quite irritating.

oh well.

Winny

2010-10-11T20:01:00.003+08:00

just hold it in... i should be able to do it... right?

lit really killed my right hand today. any slight movement would also send pains to my arm muscles. :/

i hope i won't die for physics and bio. they are going to be very difficult... D:

what am i going to do?!

i just feel glad at least there's someone out there that's _______ __ __ __ :D

it's makes me feel... good. ^^

i miss the old times though. we looked so cute. :D

just hold it in for a few more days, i think i can do it.

I hope by the end of it i'll be able to throw away those evil thoughts of mine. It's terrible to be thinking like this. i'm getting too influenced by others around me. D:

Jiayou! :D

Winny

2010-09-27T21:48:00.001+08:00

ah seriously, it's always been me. time to stop it. pathetic day i had there. pathetic. some sad life i lead. sad life.

Winny

2010-09-16T23:14:00.002+08:00

It's the time of the year where i'm feeling like this again. Jiayou winny! Have to continue thinking positively+++

Winny

2010-09-13T23:43:00.003+08:00

well, ZE:A was also kind of the reason why i had some drastic mood swings today. PMS? idk. i still remembered how happy i felt in the morning, thinking of all the stuff and recounting to the unlucky people.

All the way till recess. IDK why, but i suddenly became super depressed during recess. I missed ZE:A so much i think i could die. I seriously felt like i could die. That's why i was so depressed. I'm afraid the memory might fade. It's really scary. Once it fades, it's gone. All gone. D:

i want to apologise to the people around me for being so depressed today. i really loved them too much. D:

Winny

2010-09-13T23:36:00.003+08:00

haven't posted for a long long time. 2 more days to one month since i last posted. oh well.

went to ZE:A's showcase. shall post a fan account another time. not really free these days.

I was totally in awe. The 1st ever korean pop male idol group to leave me hanging there. seriously. i need to 收拾自己的心情 NOW!

I feel like they stole away my heart without paying. just after 9 handshakes i totally fainted. not literally but. my heart was fluttering.

now no matter what i do, i just keep thinking of ZE:A, ZE:A, ZE:A. I really feel very vexed now!!! grrrrrrrrrrr. But definitely, i didn't regret going. They left a super good impression on me.

DongJun's sparkly eyes + Jun Young's husky voice greeting + Kevin's good english + Kwanghee's wide smile + heechul/hyungshik 2 hands handshake. Really i cannot tolerate any more. my whole world seems to revolve around Dong Jun, Jun Young, Kevin and Kwanghee now. I don't really have a strong impression of the others' handshales, but these 4 seriously stole my heart away. and they were the 4 that i wrote letters to. heh.

ZE:A FIGHTING!

Winny~ flower eat mood

2010-08-15T23:01:00.003+08:00

okay i shall post something kpopish.

uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

CN Blue is coming to singapore some time this month. or week or fortnight. i want to go. i want cat 1 tix but all sold out :/ i was totally prepared to pay 168 to take a photo with them and get all of their signatures. sold out lah.

B2st and 4minute came to singapore for pre-YO OC. who cares? HAHA. actually i do. just a little. very very very little part of me.

ZE:A coming sometime next month. i wanna see kwanghee and junyoung! i fall deeper and deeper in love with junyoung like seriously. all day long was a good song. sad life they promoted at the wrong period of time.

Jay Park. Jay Park. Jay Park. i wanna go. but it's 150 for 1 1/2 hour. so not worth it. i hope i can win the showcase tix through teenage though. but quite impossible eh? i bet half of singapore population vying for the tix :/ if so easy to win then whole earth also can win already. heh. 25 sept. i wanna wanna wanna. but it's really ex. it's not worth it. i don't want to waste my time watching more bboy performances. i get amazed but i dont know how to appreciate it. :/ my bias in former 2PM, i'm sorry. D: oh shit i just checked teenage webbie. idk whether it's still on or what but ah i'm panicking sigh i should get a copy tmr oh and put in your own punctuation i'm in a confusing state of mind now. urgh. i miss him so so so so so so so so so so so... much. i really wanna give him a big hug. tell him fans will always be there for him. i know he knows that, but i dont know any other way to comfort him. i'll give him time ^^

SS3 tix most likely selling in sept. i wanna go but 10% dont wanna go. i dont know how to face them. and i heard tix are gonna be quite ex. above 100. most ex is a little above 200. sad life. i dont like the fact that they are not complete now. hankyung is ... i dont wanna talk bout him. kangin is off to army already D; miss him. kibum MIA for 100000001 light years. but heard he's gonna come back this year/soon. hope it's true. it feels like a waste that not everyone is there... :/ if they wanna come, all of them come. i don't like the missing people feeling. how?

i hope DBSK will be able to come as a whole and somehow patch up also. heart aches even thinking of how they are already awkward around each other. :/

Winny

2010-08-15T22:58:00.001+08:00

someone ought to start controlling me. i'm getting from bad to worst. i could have been sleeping now. but i havent finished my homework. what on earth am i becoming of?

自暴自弃 i guess. i totally suck right i know it too. oh well.

Winny

2010-08-15T22:35:00.003+08:00

sigh i haven't blogged for a long long long long long long long long long long long long... time.

lots of weird stuff happening to me recently.

firstly was the toilet lights. started on thurs. repeated on fri. then repeated on sat again. but it didnt happen today, which is a good thing. sat one was the worst. since on thurs and fri it was like preparing for school, it's okay. but i was peeing for goodness sake! okay i shall just talk about what happened yesterday. i went to the toilet. around 8.30PM to shit then bathe. while i was shitting, the so awesome light bulb died on me. it didn't flicker at all, it just shut down. i told my mum to get my torchlight in my room or my handphone if she can't find the torch. she took my dad's torch instead. and so, i hung the torchlight facing the mirror and bathe. it's quite creepy but at least it was brighter. then i went to bathe lah. walao i don't even know if i'm clean please. i just bathed as normal. then i feel so weird. really i felt super dirty when i walked out of the bathroom. and i got scolded by my dad for using his torch. since i also complained that it's not worth it for a torch to be so dim when it's $12. price tag was there. he *&^%$#$$%^*&(*(^%$#@!!! asked me why i used his torch. please lah, ask my mum! ass lah. then i felt quite moody after that. i havent felt so moody in quite a while. i've been a happy kid. yeah so it was quite depressing but idky. it's just some minor incident. even if i felt a little creeped out, it was okay actually. i believe i would be able to survive if earth's ever eloped in darkness. (touch wood please) oh and the light also comes back after a while. it doesn't flicker at all!!!

oh yeah. and today another unfortunate thing happened. sigh. the pole in my cupboard came off. the horizontal pole i use to hang my clothes. and duh my cupboard is in a wreck. still in a wreck now. my dad scolded my for hanging heavy stuff. like what on earth. it has been like this for 3 years. and then suddenly it breaks? GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! DBT all the ppl leh. and in the afternoon, my mum tried to act pro. wanted to fix. i told her to just leave it. she just wanted to do it. she threw all the clothes in my cupboard where? on the floor. like so wow. so clean. wow. urgh. can she like respect me a little more? i didnt ask her to do it. then it failed like 1001 times. she told me to clean up the mess. what on earth. she just threw all the clothes onto my bed. totally hate how she handles things. no one told her to do it. then she just did it. halfway through. and what, i clean up the mess? she caused it please. mean pok. then still scold me. what's wrong with her? seriously made me even more depressed. i can feel the happiness in me fading. why do all parents side with boys/youngest sibling? why?

what on earth type of bad luck do i have?

ah and thurs while having amaths test i kinda stretched and something happened to my back. it's not the muscles definitely, i dont think it's the bones so i guess it's the nerves that are hurting. i can't tilt my head to the right without feeling pain :/ it's the upper back some more. i wouldn't worry so much if it's the lower back. i remember bio teacher saying the heart is behind the lungs, more towards the back so back pain might mean heart problems :/ i lead a sad sad life :/

and my calculator died on me too. today. just faded away. then after like 1/2 hour or so it came back. and then after 10 minutes it faded away again. so i ended up using my teacher's calculator today :/ oh well.

Winny

2010-07-26T21:46:00.002+08:00

oh, i lazy to edit, so i add in a new post. WHY ON EARTH MUST ALL FANFICS END WITH SOME PASSIONATE KISS OR SOME WEDDING OR SOME SOME SOME... PREGNANCY AND GETTING KID STUFF???!!! IT'S NOT LIKE IT HAPPENS IN ALL DRAMAS. I ONLY REMEMBER OF IT HAPPENING IN FAIRYTALES LIKE 'AND THEY LIVED HAPPILY EVER AFTER'. WHAT'S WRONG WITH ALL THE AUTHORS?

OKAY I APOLOGISE. i regret typing what i typed 30 seconds ago. it's not easy to come up with a fanfic. they need a lot of inspiration. so is applaud for them. :D I LOVE LOVE LOVE TO READ BLAZING RING!!! SO AWESOMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

heehee okay i should be done ranting :D

Winny

2010-07-26T21:42:00.002+08:00

i'm getting super duper extremely obsessed with fanfics!!! it's the only way to control myself from watching dramas, but i dont like it also!!! HOWWWWWW?! what am i going to do D: should i block all the fanfic websites that i know of? sighhh. i lead a sad life. why on earth don't i have enough self-control like the control i have over my moneyyyyyyy D: D: D:

GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! i wish my parents would care more about me and make me do my work even if they have to sit next to me. it's a form of motivation. D:

oh yeah, and i got over it. like last week. heh. i guess so. :/

Winny

2010-07-17T14:31:00.001+08:00

Hi i'll most likely be okay by monday. so shut up. the next person that talks about it to me i'll smack their face.

Winny

2010-07-17T14:04:00.003+08:00

it's proven that i suck. it's the truth. face it. i'll just take it as a nightmare. nightmares are bad dreams that make good dreams sweeter. don't ever believe in winny-ism. it has never existed. don't think i'm just acting spoilt coz i lost or what. i just didn't want ____ to ___. yeah i know i'm a loser. i fail. so what?

Winny

2010-07-16T23:15:00.001+08:00

여러분, 미안해. 도, 고마워.

윈니

2010-07-14T21:48:00.003+08:00

D-2
seriously damn nervous. compared to others i'm just like dung and their like the flowers, stuck on a dung like me. D:

previous champions were super super good. i dont match up to the standard of a champion D: i'm seriously very scared and nervous. i'll feel super guilty if i let others down. fine i can admit i'm very very self conscious and prideful, that's why i don't want to lose. i hope by friday i can be okay!!!

I CAN DO IT RIGHT?!!! WHO AM I?! I'M WINNY!!! YES I CAN DO IT!

Winny

2010-06-19T23:33:00.002+08:00

好累啊！真是受不了了！D:

i should stop getting damn paranoid about small matters. sighhhhhhhhh i'm in a mess!

i think i'm starting to get power-greedy. just because i don't like them. and this is really really irritating. i have to start thinking of how people around me will think. yep i need too!

Winny

2010-06-18T16:32:00.002+08:00

I was organising my camera stuff and deleting photos to prepare for the trip. i think i'm most likely going to bring a camera. and i realised that i'm so terrible at expressions to the extend that when i don't raise my cheekbones, my smile is like this :[ or like this :l !!! and even if i raise it, my eyes dont really seem happy. it doesn't shine... like as if i'm really really happy... :/

Winny

2010-06-16T23:53:00.000+08:00

sigh i damn paranoid. cannot stand it sia. can't find my chem hol hmwrk ws D: D: D:

Winny

2010-06-08T22:15:00.000+08:00

WINNY-ISM ALL THE WAYYYYYYYYY!!!

sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i damn ego. hehehehe perhaps i'll feel better.

i've been quite paranoid these days. heehee

Winny

2010-05-27T20:43:00.002+08:00

going to m'sia tonight. but my body feels uncomfortable D: is like, the left side of my stomach feels weird. and i feel like shitting but no shit come out D:weird D:

Winny

2010-05-25T23:14:00.002+08:00

MIA so long already. heehee. and i'm going to MIA even longer...

my results suck...

Winny

2010-05-10T20:14:00.003+08:00

i feel so disappointed in myself. i didn't know how to do most of the qns for amath. so depressed depressed depressed. i really dont know what to say. nobody knew how much i wanted to cry. i really didnt see qn 10. idk idk idk! held in tears, felt more uncomfortable D:

tmr emaths also die. never study at all D: i can totally kill myself.

D:

i dislike how you're always so biased towards him D:

Winny

2010-05-09T22:05:00.002+08:00

I'M GOING CRAZY!!!

i should stop being so self conscious. really.

i'm sacrificing amaths+lit time for chem. and it's killing me. i am one of the top people in amaths... fine at least i think so. i'm proud of my maths. i don't want my marks to sink. it's one of the first few times that i'm so afraid of sinking for maths. i used to be full of confidence D:

oh well. good luck to all anyway.

Winny

2010-05-08T17:06:00.002+08:00

i just hate how whenever my whole family is at home, i lose the motivation to study. D<

i lost the momentum already. or not i could have completed physics by 5. urgh. whatever. i dont care i dont care i dont care. i have to chill.

youqing is correct lah. i can't choose my parents. so whatever whatever whatever.

feel so screwed now. gahhhhhhhh

i needneedneed to do chem. and i've been neglecting maths for a long long time. what if idk how to do amath on mon?!

2010-05-02T16:42:00.002+08:00

hee hee hee

1.
i want her album. her vocals are awesome! hehe birthday hint!

2.
this... wait first. wait wait wait. :D

3.
have been wanting this since last year. heh. shall saveeeeee

4.
have been wanting this ever since i was an SL since a2 always gets weird places/stuff.

5.
4men voices of autumn repackaged :D their vocals are awesome toooooo :D can die for!

should be these few for now. heh. i dont care if 10000001 shared cost like 10 cent or 1 cent per person. at least there's 10000001 people who cares. HAHAHA.

Winny

2010-05-01T13:17:00.003+08:00

last lesson of piano with this teacher just ended. like 5 mins ago. i'm missing her already. how i wish i could take a photo with her. :/

GAH!

in the blink of an eye, a month is over. i think i wouldn't have missed her that much last month. D:

my mum lied to her that i'm quitting piano due to studies, and she has been telling me not to stop playing. just practice when i'm free. now i'm so sad D:

i feel like quitting piano though. like i find it tough to manage too. hardly have time to practice... i think i suck at it too. D: howwwwwwwww. idk how to tell my mum though. since she has been looking for another teacher... :/ oh well.

Winny

2010-04-21T22:10:00.003+08:00

please just take my birthday as 1st april for now. those who know it, hold in the secret. i'll give it out when time comes. :D thanks

Winny

2010-04-18T16:34:00.001+08:00

after PMS-ing for a week, my period is here -.- and it is like one week early? but whatever. mehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Winny

2010-04-13T21:30:00.004+08:00

f you dad. can't you friggin understand that a website can be accessed by all computers on earth and when i dont know that website, it's none of my friggin problem or whatever that i don't understand my own computer. seriously, what generation is it now? YOU SHOULD REALLY REALLY GO AND LEARN HOW TO USE A COMPUTER. it's not like you can't do it on yours. and what yours can't print?! just connect it with the USB cable. wasted one hour of my time. i still have 1 chi compo+ 2 NAs to do please. i hope you're reading this though. to let you know how friggin outdated you are

Winny

2010-04-11T20:13:00.002+08:00

this guy is great! reminds me of susan boyle, just a male. (Y)(Y)(Y)(Y)(Y)(Y) 6 thumbs up

friday was quite a fun yet sweaty day. it's been raining so much these days that it's so so so warm. i like wind ;D photos on facebook. had a great time. HAHAHAHAHHAA.

Winny

2010-04-05T22:34:00.002+08:00

just with a word 詹, could came up with 霹雳MIT. hehehe. what a joy. talking about 007, 747, 187, Cherry老师 and 天魔星. ah, miss those times where i watched MIT. all the fear... and it reminds me how time has passed so quickly too :/ oh well.

i don't like dynamics. i hate distances. i don't care. i guess all of us are forever gonna have postitive displacement/velocity?

Winny

2010-03-28T23:13:00.001+08:00

C,

i'm really really sorry i forgot your birthday.

i fail as your friend.

REALLY VERY SORRY!

a very late -- Happy Happy Birthday!~

sorry, i've always thought your birthday was on the 29th. really sorrrrrrrrrrrry

Winny

2010-03-28T23:05:00.000+08:00

as a leader, i've failed miserably.

i'm sorry for being unable to protect my members.

i'm sorry for being so temperamental.

i'm so sorry.

but no amount of apology can make it up to you, my members.

really sorry.

Winny

2010-03-28T22:58:00.002+08:00

how? why on earth do i want 林俊杰's 第几个100天 album so much? :/

floating floating. where where? :/ :/ do do?

GOSH IT'S LIKE 11!!!

i don't know how to do AMaths D: i don't even understand any bit of it D: i feel so useless now D:

i don't know how i'm going to survive for chinese. 老师，对不起！令您失望了.

so useless. i'm such a useless fool. i have to accomplish a lot more. jiayou,winny.

Winny

2010-03-28T22:55:00.003+08:00

sorry for sucking that much.

미안해 공주, 울지말고해.

if i could throw it all into the bin so easily... it would have been better. :/

Winny

2010-03-21T22:31:00.003+08:00

school is starting tmr :/ will be a long long time till the next hol. june. june. june... :/ haven't completed my hol hmwrk. so little time left D: i'll just wish myself goodluck... oh, and i must remind myself to pack my stuff neatly during june. i wanted to do it last long hol, but coz my grandma was using my room so i didn't have the chance too :/

i'm really messy for a girl. i need to do a large scale packing this june. just hope i wont procrastinate too much D:

Winny

2010-03-20T21:28:00.003+08:00

flag day today. super tiring. really. and the holidays are like ending already D<

it was raining today. so it was quite cold. and i think most of the people weren't in a good mood. so i had quite little donations? i don't think my can was even half full... i only used half a page of stickers. shows slack? :/ oh well. and i can tell you, i hate repeating the line: "Excuse me, would you like to donate to ~~~?" "thank you~" feels so disgusting. have to act cute and girly. yuck.

Winny

2010-03-15T01:04:00.002+08:00

finished God Of Study. a good show. as in, plot wise, not much... but educational ;D. learnt lots of study tips ;D 3rd or 4th drama that made me cry... i see how hard they study and i feel so useless. they worked so hard to get into the top university. being cleverer than their characters, i believe i can do it too. i wished that technique can be used on me too... i want to find my path in life too... but towards the end, it somehow reminded me of nanny mcphee... and i have a deep impression of this line "When you need me, but don't want me, i will be there. However, when you want me, but don't need me, i will have to leave" it's like kang seuk ho's character... i must promise myself to work hard! i know i didnt work that hard for CTs...
i'll post about the E awards in another post.

Winny

2010-03-11T22:33:00.002+08:00

i failed terribly for hcl. so terribly. the worst type of score. i feel so terrible. furthermore, hcl was the 1st 2 periods of the day. i can tell you, and yh can prove too, i cried in school. i cried when no one was looking and only yh was. i told her to just let me cry out my sorrows and i'll be okay in a few minutes. i told her that it makes me feel better after i cry. so i just cried for a minute, wiped the tears off my face, and went back to normal. only yh knew. but seriously i was super disappointed with this marks :/ what can i do? throughout the whole day, it felt like someone stabbed me in the heart whenever i heard the word 'chinese'... really painful~ D:

Winny

2010-03-05T22:40:00.002+08:00

i... realised that i have a liking for short guys who can sing well. hehe.

that's why i think short guys don't need to feel bad about their height. heh.

look at suju, i like KRYS, they're like people who use insoles...
2PM, jay. shortest member...
the only exception is DBSK. i like changmin. but the whole group is tall...

all great vocalists.

but in reality, i don't know. just only some observation from pop groups.

mando-pop also. fahrenheit's aaron, shortest too. hehehe.

oh well.~

shall sleep. getting so tired in front of TPC :/

Winny

2010-03-02T22:43:00.000+08:00

https://docs.google.com/Doc?docid=0AXXeRl8i6vuwZGc4aDRudmtfMTV6OXBweGNi&hl=en

cried for jay reading this. pathetic. how did i even come to like them?!

Winny

2010-02-28T22:15:00.001+08:00

Oh, and forgot to say, KO3 ended this weekend. :/ ending was quite repetative. like all battle scene. but after they won, it was okay. but i somehow hoped everyone would die and we all cry. yeah like sad ending. :/ oh well.

Winny

2010-02-28T22:14:00.001+08:00

Good luck to all for CTs. i'm supposed to be sleeping now. but i'm so full i can't sleep. ate steamboat for dinner. mum made chilli, and now my whole mouth stinks of chilli even though i ate chewing gum and brushed my teeth D:

should sleep soon. wait for my dad to sleep lah. he gonna sleep soon.

Winny

2010-02-28T20:56:00.001+08:00

Common tests this week. and i'm still slacking around. D: stupid stupid stupid. i'm so lazy compared to last year. slap me slap me slap me D<

Winny

2010-02-28T15:42:00.001+08:00

i'll get haters, but honestly i don't mind. you can say that i only support jayPM. i can say, i think it's true. where did the loyalty of the other members go to? so disappointed in them.

Winny

2010-02-25T22:11:00.000+08:00

Jay, Jaebum, is gone.

i, am speechless. what to do?

Winny

2010-02-24T21:01:00.002+08:00

happy 200th post to my blog.

i feel like crying. homework overload. i cry not because i'm stressed. i cry just to make myself feel happier.

CTs next week D: havent revised for any subject at all D: homework overload. it's ridiculous how teachers rush their subjects even 1 week before CTs. :/

Winny

2010-02-21T21:53:00.002+08:00

i've been quite clumsy recently. on wednesday, i was the last one in class, so when i went to the foyer to return the key, i tripped over the stairs and my TPC fell out from my hands also. :/ pathetic. i was checking my TPC like crazy after i returned the key. then at night, i realised that i have a blue-black on my thigh. :/ so clumsy D: and i've applied ointment for quite a few nights, but it's still there. and quite terrible too D:

Winny

2010-02-21T21:49:00.002+08:00

'i hate when you lose balance on the train/bus and then feel like a retard'

this facebook group reminds me of an experience i had a long time ago.

it was like a tour. so i wanted to go to the back of the bus to get back the game that i lent another kid(fine, guy.but there was a girl too). yeah but i just woke up from a sleep so i was still quite blur. but the bus wasn't moving lah. and i was walking, then i tripped over this grandma's feet and flew forward. and i knocked the guy head to head. but no kissing. HAHAHAHHA. quite close though. just that i got a bruised head. HAHAHAHAHAH. okay not funny.

Winny

2010-02-21T20:38:00.004+08:00

ok i shall blog about something. i have big feet. i bought a new shoe though. as in running shoes. on saturday. like after how long? quite comfortable. price; not so good. $59. okay. this is just an interruption. i shall continue.

so. my mum and i walked into Stadium(sports shop!!!tskkkk). 1st thing that caught my eyes, the beautiful ReePumps. short form for reebok pumps. it's like those sneakers that celebs wear!!!

it looks like this (scroll up)
it's just exactly like this! but there's other colours. what a beauty~
okay. off point again. and so we walked one round lah. by then i had bought a pair of shoes. my mum just wanted to see if she should have regretted her decision. hehe. and suddenly, i spotted a pair of boots

something like this (scroll up) just that it's in black,there's a zip at the inner side, and the heels are not so high/long(?).

then i was like saying. whoa i wish i could have one. my mum spotted size 10 (i wear 11 T.T) she told me to try. and said just try, coz she knew i couldn't fit into the shoe.
and so she said, she'll buy for me if i can wear it. HAHA. guess what, i squeezed my feeeeeeeeet in, and i could fit into the pair of boots. HAHAHA. look at the price, $179 before 30% discount. HAHAH.

i know lah, it was tight, yeah but i could fit in, and you knew how happy i was???!!! and my mum didn't buy, but i was still super happy that i could fit in!!! coz it was super pretty. oh, and US size, so i could lah~ hehe

okay. end of story.

Winny

2010-02-21T18:17:00.002+08:00

i don't feel like blogging bout OBS. i don't feel like blogging bout CNY too. OBS was too awesome to describe. CNY was too crappy to describe. mehhhhhhhhhhhh

Winny

2010-02-18T22:40:00.001+08:00

tired D: common tests coming soon D: it'll kill me! the smell of incense at home is killing me too. really. i can't stand it.

Winny

2010-02-12T20:07:00.001+08:00

going to leave for malaysia soon. suddenly dont really feel like going. sometimes i really wish i celebrated chinese new year in singapore. sigh.

anw,
Happy Chinese New Year

and

Happy Valentines

(in advance~)

i'll be uncontactable for the next few days.

and i have so much homework D:

Winny

2010-02-08T22:14:00.001+08:00

i'm a failure. i told myself i must complete all my work tonight. i guess i cant D:

Winny

2010-02-08T22:00:00.000+08:00

snsd, i'll promise to stop hating on you as long as you sing proper songs like star star star. beautiful. really. stop those cutesy oh oh oh stuff. star x3 is much much better!!!

Winny

2010-02-07T21:28:00.002+08:00

i'm in a mess now. i feel so screwed. i want to go back to pulau ubin for OBS. i'll be free of my worries there. so terrible. oh so terrible. sighhhhhhhhhh

Winny

2010-01-24T23:25:00.002+08:00

but i really really really want an ipod touch. if m'sia has internet, even better. i want to use internet overseas since CNY i'm really really afraid jay's news released. i want to 1st hand know it D:

Winny

2010-01-24T22:41:00.002+08:00

hi. shhhhhhhhhh. i have a secret.

i really want to go buy some stuff. like what those adults wear. tsk. i feel so weird. i don't know. i need to know what my style is first. :/

i love shoes, but shoes don't love me. D: all so small. so big feet. D:

Winny

2010-01-24T01:22:00.001+08:00

update please.

okay i updated. hehehe

Winny

2010-01-14T22:40:00.002+08:00

DISTINCTION FOR GRADE 5 THEORY EXAMMMMMMMMMM!~ WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!~ SO HAPPY~

95/100 damn shiok can. i can't believe that i can get distinction!!! i only like expected a merit since my composing is not that good. 95 ya know!!!

WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!~

WIIIIIIIINNY

2010-01-14T16:40:00.001+08:00

心酸。太酸了。靠声音，我的声音也不小。可能是我感冒，影响了表现。不知道。心酸阿！feel so terrible. D:

Winny

2010-01-13T20:51:00.001+08:00

stupid flu. make me feel so terrible D:

runny nose, tearing eyes. it's killing me.

everytime i'm down with flu, i'm in a bad mood.

mum told me to rest at home tmr. but i don't want to. killer. seriously.

Winny

2010-01-12T23:14:00.002+08:00

i'm not feeling well, and it sucks!

2nd day of sore throat. today i started speaking though. and i started to have flu too. nose so uncomfortable D: D: D:

i just feel so uncomfortable. D:

Winny

2010-01-09T22:52:00.002+08:00

i don't know what's the point of blogging so much when no one reads. heh. but letting go of feelings that are stuck inside is comfortable.

was reading some of my old posts. felt so stupid. :/ no one reading, and i always post as if someone is reading.

why on earth do i need to apologise for not updating when there's no one who reads? it's weird.

i feel like cutting my hair short. i'll feel lighter, as in my head will feel lighter. don't need to rush in the morning too.but it's a trouble for bathing coz if i not washing my hair then have to use shower cap. so how?!

Winny

2010-01-09T00:24:00.003+08:00

today had CCA open house. for sec 1s. i dunno why but i felt that it was quite redundant this time. :/

idk why but ever since morning, the area above the vagina was painful. disgusting lah. then we had dedication ceremony in the morning, i slept throughout the talking parts. and after that, sec 3s had to stay back. probs with the OBS form stuff... and we had discipline check too. only had 25 minutes of Amaths. terrible lah. since our teacher is slow enough. D:

had lit diagnostic test after recess. terrible also. D: D: D: i couldn't even understand the unseen prose D:

then had english, and Emath after that. emath teacher also teaches super slowly D: 3hours lesson already, still on intro of indices. i wished MDK was our Emath teacher instead D:

then went to help set up choir booth, went to eat. sec 1s came around 2. 30

i had to give out the flyers and sweets. went in pairs. then this sec 1 girl approached me and asked me if i remembered her, but before i replied, she said she was from 1S1, then i just said okay. i didn't even start a word about choir and she requested for me to bring her to the choir booth. she's the best can. HAHA. but i felt so guilty that i couldn't remember her, when she could even remember a minor cheer teacher like me. i was only there for 10 minutes or so, and she most likely only saw me for 10 minutes, and she could recognise me. felt so touched ;D hehehe and i was quite shocked too. if she was alto 2(!) material, how good would it be ;D

seniors told us that for the auditions for MEP girls, none of them were eligible for alto 2... D: but i won't raise my low notes standard. i need strong voices that can sing at least F. actually we even have E for alleluia. that's why.

spent a lot of time slacking there. like a waste of time okay. sang at mini forum for a short period of time. packed up and left at 4. when i was at the raffles town club bus stop, it suddenly started to rain lor. irritating. i was a little wet since the rain was heavy. i know, the bus stop is sheltered, but still got wet D:

managed to catch KBS music bank today. T-ara won. bo peep ;D i didn't know how i got to KBS World channel too... i only remember it's channel 173. and actually, with a lot of singers that i didn't know, music bank was quite boring today. maybe coz i watched the whole show too. 2PM didn't perform D: hope they will perform soon ;D

oh yeah, i must remember that i owe steph a divider file, SM owes me 2.40.

and i requested 2PM+Jaebum icons from an icon creator blog, but the icons are not pretty D:

icons click here

the others were pretty, but the 2PM and jae batch was not as pretty. i liked the one with jae wearing headphones, but i didn't like the smiley face. D: eyes crooked. i like the black-white one with his smile-y eyes too, but the guy at the back is quite distracting D:

i'm also thinking of cutting my hair short. short until no need to tie. 1, for OBS. 2, i'm a little tired of long hair. 3, long hair is quite irritating. but my face looks very fat and round with short hair, so that i'll look like an apple. D: i dunno how D: shall consider D:

should sleep now. BYE!~

Winny

2010-01-06T22:24:00.002+08:00

i have a livejournal. since i can customize settings for posts, i will rant there. i always have unexpected readers here. as in, i'll explain. it's like i know i'm not talking to anyone coz there's basically no one who reads my blog. but there's this type of visitors who will visit once in a while. i don't want to offend anyone too. so yeah. off to livejournal.

these days, school is so tiring, since i sleep quite late at night.
i want to say sorry to all of the teachers who have been teaching me these past few days and will still be teaching me throughout the year. sorry for sleeping in your classes. i feel stupid. since i can't concentrate. i'll just doze off without knowing. and sorry to physics teacher, for lying to you.

physics teacher caught me dozing off in class, after class asked me what happened. i lied to her that i couldn't sleep at night. when i was rushing holiday homework. so sorry. she even thought i was too nervous due to start of school. sorry.

shall go to sleep soon.

Whinny the sleepyhead.

2010-01-04T23:10:00.002+08:00

WINNY AH! i really want to slap you! if you want to take Higher Chinese, YOU MUST WORK HARD! don't slack so much like what you are doing now!!!

CANNOT SAY DON'T KNOW HOW TO DO!!!

CANNOT SAY DON'T FEEL LIKE DOING!!!

CANNOT FOREVER BE WAITING FOR PEOPLE TO SLEEP BEFORE YOU DO HOMEWORK!!!

SLAP YOU SLAP YOU SLAP YOU SLAP YOU SLAP YOU SLAP YOU SLAP YOU SLAP YOU SLAP YOU SLAP YOU !!!!!!!!!!

Winny

2010-01-04T21:53:00.003+08:00

1st day of school, wasn't that bad... and wasn't that good...

couldn't sleep the night-morning before school. so went to school feeling weird...

given another chance to take higher chinese. decided to accept ;D i will work hard!

Winny

2010-01-03T02:39:00.002+08:00

it's 2:40AM now. my brother just went to sleep like 3 minutes ago.

it stinks when he copies me and stays up late, wake up early to do stuff. i do that because i want peace and silence. he's just a copy cat.

to think i still wanted to do lit. at least 2 chapters. i told myself to do at least 2 chapters. and i didn't touch timing at all for 24 hours. i can't finish it on time. the video just lags too much D:

HOW? later my position gets removed D: i want to contribute to 2PM!!!

i can't do proper song covers, i can't do proper dance covers. i can't help at all. i can't feel good. :/

i hate you for staying up so late. no peace for myself. and i felt terrible enough the past few days. i wish i could have a proper room by myself.

no, this is just an excuse for myself. an excuse coz i don't want to do work. an excuse D:

i hate myself for being like this. i don't know how to change. i don't like change.

if i didn't get myself into pop music, i wouldn't have been like this. those fangirling stuff. curiosity really kills the cat.

haven't finished 50% of homework. die. monday morning how? i think walk into class the time also awkward... dunno where to sit and stuff...

and type until here. it's 2:55AM. should i sleep now or 3:30? OH NO. cannot. waste time.

i feel terrible D:

and i know my dad is gonna wake up soon. to watch TV. coz he can't sleep.

:/

i still feel terrible

i want to turn back my time. i won't ask for a room. it sucks.

i read some of my oldest posts today. i feel so weird. my english used to be so weird. now it still is, but better? and i used to be able to speak chinese easily. these days, when i want to speak chinese, i have to think for a long long time D:

OH NO! it's 3.

and i'm hungry D:

i'm impressed by pianists. i seriously think they are wonderful.

must remember to learn chopin's waltz in c sharp minor op 64-2. beautiful. just beautiful.

i think i'm terrible. my attitude is terrible. everything about me is terrible. i'm at wrong and yet i blame others. sorry.

i musn't get back my copy cat syndrome. i will not copy work. i will not. what should i do? :/ homework... homework... homework...

i don't understand why i can't take holiday homework. normal school day homework i can always finish, but i can't finish holiday homework. i need planning i guess. but since i don't have a next day deadline, i don't have the motivation. and this quickly, 2010 just approached. D:

OBS in a month D: i don't know how i'll survive it. with all my headache syndromes.

bye

Winny

2010-01-02T23:40:00.003+08:00

~~i think i should be named zeng tao yan instead of zeng tian mei. sucks.~~

and, i kinda have a thing for people who play piano. just admire them. like seungho playing the piano in Idol army season 5. just immediately went around looking for the song, but i realised that actually i've heard the song before. in jay chou's move, secret/bu neng shuo de mi mi. but i didnt really take note... dunno..
been quite down these days. oh well...

Winny

2010-01-01T00:19:00.001+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!! IT'S 2010!!!

WINNY

2009-12-31T23:54:00.001+08:00

this shall be the last post of 2009 ;D

but i wasted this last day of 2009. 5 minutes left... i'm still watching MBC Gayo Dae Jun plus the countdown show.

Bye 2009~

Winny

2009-12-31T23:16:00.002+08:00

28/12/09 Monday - SCO #1 hehehe

woke up late... coz i slept late too. went to NTUC to buy the gummy set lunch. 1 set each. hehe. i bought 3 sets in total ;D. and then went to subway to buy brunch for myself+sauce. i bought turkey breast. value offer ;D and for sauce, she wanted cold cut trio. ;D then quickly rushed to bugis. was 5 minutes late. when i went out of the station, i thought i saw someone familiar... but spotted the trio quickly and went there.

G also thought that person looked familiar. and then we went to cold storage and we recognised the person! coz she was following us. YB!!! oh, and i gave each of them the gummies. other than yibin, since i didn't know she was coming along -.- then G bought stuff to eat. and when we went out of cold storage, all 5 of us went to arcade to waste time coz the K not open yet. we looked over from bugis, and it wasn't open. so we went to arcade lah. played one round. and my 50cent somemore -.-

and we went there. stank like crazy. the smoke smell. but the place was good. at the start, no one dared to sing except YB. after like 1-2 hours then i open. hehehe. and i realised that i went into the male toilet instead -.-

I FOUND KOREAN SONGS!!! SORRY SORRY, GEE, GENIE, IT'S YOU!!! SO HAPPY LAH. AND IT'S BETTER THAN KBOX OKAY! 1001 TIMES!!! COZ IT DOESN'T HAVE DISGUSTING MICS!!! the mics are good (Y)

and i danced also. but didn't have 2PM songs :/ it's okay ;D hope in time to come, they'll have 2NE1 songs too ;D

and sang lots of jay chou songs ;D and a lot of songs ;D then G left at 4. she had curfew? mum told her go home... we left at 4.45 to go eat. and oh yeah, the stinky thing was incense from the toilet... then went to this food court to eat. i finished my subway. and then went home ;D

FUN DAY!

Winny

2009-12-31T21:42:00.002+08:00

outing with A 22/12/09 Tuesday

i was 5 minutes early, she was 15 minutes late -.- so i waited for 20 minutes :/

peak hour jam. :/ lunch time. went to mos burger to eat. stupid cashier gave me lots of ice and very little lemon tea. cheat my money. D:< not that bad lah. wasn't that awkward. ;D

1st we went to isetan. a looked around, not happy, then went to tangs. we saw this brand called guy laroche which had a pretty colour combination but the price was over the budget, so looked around. and then we went to wisma atria's isetan, to see if they had the guy laroche brand since the other isetan didnt have it. and the wisma atria isetan didn't have it. so we went to taka. wait, 1st we went to kinokuniya. a was looking for stuff. don't have too. so went to taka to see. saw the guy laroche brand. but it was more expensive as there was lesser discount. so we walked all the way back to tangs. and she bought that key holder.

after that, we took bus to raffles city. she got the shirt. and by then it was 5. and we continued to walk around. and we went to HMV at city link too. no super junior stuff D: sad. but had 2PM stuff ;D but i didn't buy. double the price of yesasia -.- and when i went home i was quite disappointed coz no suju stuff. yep so went home with a winnie the pooh post it holder(?) idk how to say lah. :/ post pics another time. which is forever not posting. hehehe.

Winny

2009-12-31T20:23:00.002+08:00

Outing with Sauce 21/12/09 Monday

supposed to meet at bugis at 9.45, go to national library to do homework. but i was late, she was later. when we reached national library, borrowed chinese book 1st then went to 5th level study lounge. i started on maths, she started on lit. she copy answers lah. wait, rephrase. and finish quickly, and proceeded to english. while i was still stuck on maths -.- and there was one qn where volume of sphere needed. both of us didnt know. so i decided to sms people. hehehe.explains the sms? yep. we did work till 1.30 then went to eat lunch.

both of us didnt know what to eat. then decided to eat pasta mania. then too full, decided to walk around to digest. <-- excuse i gave. after like 10 minutes of walking, we lost the interest to do homework. so went to arcade to past time and waste money instead.

played for like 2hours? and wasted like $8? yep. we got a piano sharpener and some toy thingy. went there to buy childhood memories too... ;D

then went home. bugis is so so so crowded...

Winny

2009-12-30T01:12:00.003+08:00

Badminton session~ 18/12/09

when i walked over to PP's house, it wasn't windy, but when i reached her house, the wind came. so we sat there for 1-2 hours again, chit-chatting. then some residents invited us to play... sounds too serious/formal but... yeah

we were chit-chatting and waiting for the wind to subside. and so the auntie told us to play with her daughter+daughter's friend while she rested. the two kids were Primary 5, going to primary 6 next year. had some wonder battle. HA. and what more, we're like sec 2 going sec 3 next year -.-

and then the kids were tired... so we had a battle with two adults. one young grandma and the mum of one of the kid. and the worst isn't here yet...

we played with this badminton pro... 1st round, pp pair with him, against me and the mum. tiring leh. 2nd round, i pair him, against pp and the mum which was tiring...

so went home after that. butts ached like dk what for no reason. :/

Winny

2009-12-24T02:11:00.002+08:00

i'm almost catching up with my posts. :/ outings and outings and outings.

1. badminton with 'servant' P on 18/12/09 Friday
2. outing with 'sauce' V on 21/12/09 Monday
3. outing with A on 22/12/09 Tuesday

;D oh, and i havent posted about melon awards MMA yet eh? i wasn't that happy with the results, but oh well... :/ i should sleep. after i finish the song that i'm listening to. Seo In Young's vocals are wonderful wonderful!!! i like Jewelry's Love Story! and it's quite sad that they'll be splitting after this last promotion. well, not really splitting, but the 2 original members are leaving. :/ JiaYou Seo In Young. you have power vocals. so i believe you'll do well even if you're solo!

Winny ;D

2009-12-24T02:05:00.001+08:00

just deleted 20+ of my sms. hehehe. inbox full :/